Priyanka Chopra: I am very high headed

Priyanka Chopra can’t stress enough on the fact that she hates being under constant public scrutiny, and yet, she’s been in the news for all the wrong reasons lately.

Refusing to clear her stance, and maintaining that she never had a problem with anybody in the industry, she says that perhaps not happy, but she’s in a content space right now. Excerpts:

As a girl, it’s not right to put myself out there
People keep speculating about my personal life because I am evasive about it. When there’s an announcement worth making, I will talk. I don’t like being under the microscope constantly and having to explain myself, being subjected to that sort of judgment. Speculation is part of my business. I’m used to it – not that I like it, I hate it. It upsets me, but I don’t think it’s right to put myself out there, especially as a girl. Maybe if I were a man, I would have been a philandering Casanova. As a girl, I am this stupid, emotional, very loyal, sort of believe-in-values-and-principals sort of girl. It’s very irritating. And I’m a Cancerian. We’re kind of like that.

It’s not fair for people to judge and decide the good, bad and ugly, and say, ‘Oh, she looks nice with him; oh she shouldn’t have done that’. I don’t come into your bedroom and ask you what you did last night. I understand that we’re celebrities, but we’re also human beings. A little bit of yourself is important to keep to yourself. Like I tweet the things I want people to know. People know what I want them to know. And even if I come out and clear everything, people will speculate further on what I said and why I said it.

There are cliques in Bollywood, but I am not a part of them
I have lived my life on my terms. I have never had issues with anybody in the industry, so I don’t know if it’s sorted or not, or if there was an issue to begin with. Of course, there are cliques in Bollywood and people stick together, but I have always tried to stick to my work. As an industry, Bollywood is very competitive, and I’m very competitive as a person, but I’ve never been a part of any clique, and I’ve always worked with all actors and directors, all camps. It’s not been easy. I never had anybody backing me. I have been thrown out of films for reasons unknown to me, I have been cast in films for reasons unknown to me. I think it’s destiny and hard work. I don’t cry about my losses.

On my thirteenth birthday, when I was about to enter my teens and wanted to go to America to study, my mom asked me if I was sure about it, and I just kept saying that I want to go. So, she said, ‘OK, whatever you do, it’ll be your decision. If something goes wrong, I’ll take you back, but you’ll know that there will be consequences of your actions and you should have the courage to stand up for them’. I live my life extremely by that rule. I am very high headed – that doesn’t mean arrogant – but I believe in conducting yourself with dignity in whatever choices you make, and that is important, and a big piece of how I am, where I am. I mean, my parents are doctors, we’d never even been to Mumbai. I had to learn grooming, makeup, acting, everything on my own. I take pride in that.

It’s possible for two lead actresses to be friends
I am professionally friendly with everyone, and along the years, I have made some amazing friends. I am just in a very content place right now. It’s not a happy place, it’s a content place. And I definitely think it is possible for two lead actresses to be friends, especially if you are in a content place. Of course, there will be insecurities as an actor. You always want to strive to be your best, but your career doesn’t depend on other people. It depends on your choices. Even if my films haven’t done well, I’ve always got appreciation. I have got awards for films that haven’t done well, and that makes me feel comfortable with who I am. Hence, you can be friends with whoever, and it doesn’t matter. You can be genuinely happy for other people, but first, you have to be happy with yourself.